I am not new but have recently had a lot of issues caused by past trauma, however its now a new year and I find my self in a situation i have 3 partners (for this i will be refuring to them as M, J and C) I have been in a thruple with M and J for 2 years at this point and they had been together for 5 before that for context. When ever i have been alone with just one of them everything feels normal and happy whenever I am with both M and J it always seems that Js full focus is on M and I am an afterthought unless i am having a breakdown. For Ms part while there is a focus Shift to focusing more on J its less extreme, but recently it has turned out that both M and i have been asked out seperately by C and when we found out we decided to spend time together as a group and the same focus Shifter are occurring where C is fully focused on M and I am an after thougt again, and a less severe version is once again occurring with M am I just destined to be left out whe im together with multiple partners ??