I know this is a little strange, but I feel the need to share and understand. I feel like I'm approaching my own journey backwards. For context, I just finished a series called "Frieren: beyond journey's end" it's a story of a fantasy mage like you would find in some RPG game, 80 years after the end of the journey. It's a beautiful story, but the reason it's relevant is because as it ended, the song that punctuates every episode played, and I was hit with this profound feeling of bittersweet sadness. In the minute or so of it playing I just started crying, tears streaming down my face as I felt a well of emotions overflowing from a part of my soul I've never explored. What I want to ask is, how do I find the source of these emotions? I'm not new to meditation, but I don't even know where to start, until i knew how much sadness I had buried, I thought I was happy, perhaps slightly bored of my routine, but happy! now I can't even stand to go back to the feelings I had had just 30 minutes ago. does anyone have any advice?