I (21F) feel so lonely right now. Well Ive been feeling this way for sometime but it’s just really amplified rn. i don’t have much of a support system, i work ridiculous hours and i take care of my mom and don’t have much of my own freedom. when i do have time i spend it all with my best friend (we both like girls. i’m currently struggling with my sexuality and trying to figure out if im pan or strictly lesbian but i just don’t label myself so i don’t go into a spiraling downfall) . the relationship we have is the healthiest i’ve ever been in (platonic and romantic) and the more i’m with her the more my feelings for her grow. i feel like it’s hard for me to open up as a friend and have in-depth conversations and connections bc of how i feel about her and also scared to push her away.

i feel like telling her my feelings will ruin our current relationship and i value to bond we have already but i just consume all time wanting to be with her and also feel like i can be my authentic self sometimes bc i don’t want to push her away. i often leave my self confused about the feelings i have for in my sexuality journey.

anyways essentially what im saying is i need more friends and need to spend my time doing other things. my friend is amazing and i don’t want to stop being her friend but i need to also make time for other things and people when i have time to do so.