Today I(M23) was just blindsided by my now ex girlfriend (24) of five years. We were high-school sweethearts made it all the way through college and worked through our problems the entire time. One of the biggest issues is the distance between us. While in school we would see each other most weekends and during the summers. I just recently graduated about a year after her and finally got my first job.

The job requires me to ship out for a few months at a time and be home for the same length i spent away and when I'm home, I'm home I have no work obligations and can devote my time to what ever. During my college career I was also away for similar schedules as I whent to school to be a mariner. From the very start of our relationship I told her what my career entailed and what I wanted. I knew that I wanted to have a family so I wouldn't sail longterm. And because our plan was to have a family together and this was always something we wanted i would sail to pay off my student loans and then take a shore side Engineering job.

But today when I finally say I'm gonna do it after spending my summer with her almost non stop with the only times we weren't together was when she was working during the week of a typical 9-5 and i get my vary first job of 140k for 6 months (not sailing consecutively) she breaks up with me because she can't do this anymore of being away from each other.

How do I go on from here??? Not even three days ago we spent the entire weekend together and all of the days till now we're all lovely dovey with her sending cute texts of her in my flannel. And how that I'm the love of her life and that shes happy im hers and Now the day that I get my big job that I have been working years for its all of a sudden over and I've lost my best friend because she cant do this anymore.

PS. Sorry for the rambling and the lack of a clear story this just happened a few hours ago and I don't really know what to do with myself now because she was the one who I talked with about everything. And now I feel like I just lost the love of my life and my best friend on what was supposed to be the second best day of my year.