I’m not sure what his feelings are at the moment. And it’s confusing, because he said back in December when I asked him if he wanted to start something, and he said he didn’t feel that way towards me anymore. But his actions, and the way he looks at me, it makes me feel like a 15 year old girl again.

When I asked him if he wanted to start something, and he said no, there was a part of me that was okay with it cuz I never actually knew if the feelings were mutual when I was 15. And it felt as if the relationship could finally be all said and done. But not even 30 minutes after this conversation, I was leaving and we locked eyes before I shut the door, and it felt like when he would stare at me when I was 15. It was like pure nostalgia. I was 15 years old in that moment. Then I didn’t see him for 4 months because he went to school. When he came back, he was in a conversation with 2 other dudes, and as soon as he saw me, he immediately left the group, hugged me, and started talking with me.

There are a lot of different factors that play into me thinking he still has feelings. I think he continued to have feelings for me for years after I started having feelings for someone else. We were separate for a while cuz I moved cities, but when I saw him again, he was so excited to see me, and I was too. Something changed after a few weeks, but the way he looks at me, and the way he smiles when he looks at me makes me confused because his actions and his words are contradicting. In this song that I found, it talks about how beautiful she is, and how there is nothing better than to be loved by her. I can’t tell if I’m overthinking it, but I can’t help but think that every time he listens to the song, he thinks of me.