Context:

We were looking for a commute to work together in Jan 2018, it did not work out, but one day - we met at a train station and the moment I saw her it felt like love at first sight. Nothing else mattered. I am a very shy person and yet, approached her to say hello. She is one of the nicest people you would ever meet. We grew close as friends, but since it takes courage to ask a person out, I waited till an appropriate time in May (my birthday) to ask her out.

A week before my birthday, she stopped showing up. I reached out via text (we were texting on messenger, I did not have her number) and got no response. I think of here every single day since. All we did during our time "together" was travel from point A-B. Talk, be in quiet. It was just very easy being with her in the moment.

It was a year before she reached back out - turns out she had to go back to her country (China) and was in the States back on business for a week. I saw the message and immediately broke down. I couldn't believe it.

We finally exchanged numbers, I got WeChat, and we kept in touch for a while. In the mean while, I still could not tell her how I felt for her. How I still feel for her. She was with someone during the pandemic and has another boyfriend now and everything seems to be fine with them (I am incredibly happy for that)

Situation:

I have these bottled up feelings since 4 years now and last night, I told her that I really liked her. Her response was that she feels very lucky to have met me and that she hopes my feelings are not getting in the way of me moving on. Truth is I feel like she is the one. I cannot put her through a guilt trip by telling her that. She's happy and I think she did not feel that strongly about me.

I really like her and no matter how hard I try, I cannot bear the thought of losing her and not being with her one day. I tried forgetting about her, I tried breaking texting habits but I always find myself thinking about her.

It hurts. And I can barely stop crying since the night before when I told her. What can I do?