So basically I started dating this girl that I really felt was right and could trust ended up having a baby with her became an alcoholic when I found out she was pregnant and got sober cold turkey a few months after my son was born and thought everything was good/nothing could better but then she went out and snuck around and slept with her first child's father(who hasn't been in there's sons life at all/is a gangbanger/threatened to harm there son her, her family, me and my friends all while I stepped in sense birth before I even had a child of my own blood and took the roll of father for life before I even had to) behind my back and laughed in my face about it when he dropped her off down the block and I watched them kiss goodbye all after a night at the bar then leaving with him at 12 and getting dropped off down the block from the house at 330am and then she lied for months about everything but would own up after I would go out of my way to find out the truth and ended up trying to forgive her for the kids sake and Ill always try to make things work for them then she did it again with another ex 3 months later and I'm just going nuts I can't trust the one person I created life with