So I guess this is just me just making some last ditch effort but here we go. I've been with my wife for nearly 10 years (married for 6 this year). We have a house and a child and things are chaotic. I am always irritating her and of course I constantly get called out for what I don't do. It just gets harder and harder to be with her. I get angry for all the things she points out and she get upset I don't follow the plan. We are having financial issues and making bills is hard. She is frustrated by me . I work 3 jobs and she works 1 but she is a therapist and just got her license. So alot of money waiting to come in was just for her situation to change. I work from home, do Uber and I have a weekend Job. I'm not always consistent with my Uber schedule. But I am also at home with my 3 year old all day most days of the week specially when she has to work in office. I'm tired of things becoming fights . But I know I'm also burnt out. She is 31 and I'm 33. We can't afford proper daycare and even before our son things were strained. Some times things got physical most of it was verbal. She just recently after a fight in which I called her a cunt. She said I hate you , I don't want to be near you and " I wasted my life being with you." I've said I hate her before and I even has some suicide thoughts just cause I felt trapped but hearing all that I feel like shit and besides her saying I'm a piece of shit I guess I already am one. I do not proclamation to be an amazing guy, I'm not as motivated as she is and I have a short fuse. In truth I fell like a burden to her and if I really wasted her life why do I hold on to her so much. We aren't even as close as we used to be..... I'm deathly afraid of change and of this really is done then my whole life is going to be flipped over and especially with my son in the mix. I don't want to irritate her and I don't want to be her burden. In truth and I'm ashamed to put this out there I am bipolar and I suffer from depression often. I often lashout at her and no one else... I dunno if it's being to close where everything I do upsets her or if I was never meant to be with her. I know relationships take work but I feel like I'll just always be wrong and a fuck up.