My head is spinning like never before I dont know what to do, what to think, and how to defuse all those emotion in me !

My father have decided after nearly 30y of common life and challenges that if he meet some one new he wouldn't hesitate to live My mother...

Them, it always have been a roller-coaster, my mom suffered of postpartum depression twice, my father worked his ass of to compensate, when she was okay my father had his bankruptcy and lied to my mom about it until they've lost the house.

Then the climb went down for the past 10y it started by isolation, they dont believe in friendship any more and dont have friends, instead of building up again the bussiness my fathers went to work in the Healthcare after 3years of study ( wich my mum founded and supported him all the way ) he tried to make a festival wich was growing and successful for several years until he decided that he's fed-up with what people in the community says and drop it, to see other people of the community copiing him and taking all the credit of his work cause people dont dissociated the two event.

all that time my mom was working with his father bussiness wich she bought in part when he retired, she depend a lot on my father to run it cause she can't say no to a client and isn't really comfortable talking with her provider's and often with collecting money, but some how all those years she was the big provider of the family wich played a lot on her humer.she was very explosive and evrything disturbed her so my father never wanted to add more to the fire with the Healthcare care job he gradually made it to my mom and they've started travelling again (out of the country ) and going more often out of the city, tablet, gifts restaurant and all that not making any economies or major bussiness investment/changes.

I've been trying for years to stuck their heads out of that hole ! I kept contact with a lot of theirs friends trought my friends and engagin in different organization( European community in canada), I tried to build a project in my moms bussiness, evry single time my ideas where reject considered crazy, not for the community or to expensive. I was never listen to more then 5min and told that I should start a food truck and don't take my community as a possible market or count on them ...

(the friendship and engagement where never for them but for me )

I am on a roller-coaster of emotion. on one hand I don't want them to be alone on the other hand i have my own probleme and goals and I am already very very stuck up financially and emotionally having to adapt for the past year to a new life wich started with a job burnout following the covid 19 lock down .

my father dont believe in possession, economy nor politic since the beginning of the covid he's really negative about anything surrounding those subjects. He worked his ass of and was on the first line of the pandemia and started a dangerous pay to pay living type.

while my mom want a condo, go back to the old continent ounce a year and a one hot country a year and you know not having to thing if they can afford it ( coffee, croissant, a trip out of town ounce in a while)

I quited the house very early ( 17yo ) cause I was constantly harass by my mom about my weed consumption (if I smoked or not ) and my father never really defend me even tho he smoked somethime, I could open my Mail cause it was her house and they always wanted me to pay a rent even if all my responsibilities ( garbage, dishes, clean room) where respected i was just never home and they said i was conning the house as a dorm room. I was always compared to the other kids of the community ( my grades, my activities etc) I wasn't like them really into school shenanigans but I wasn't a bum or a trouble maker

I am very confused and scared that if they separated my father because of his wreckless economy and behavior or my mom with her stress and scare wouldn't pass over it and make a stupid action