I've realised in few months after patching up again with my long time gf is that it's me who's being toxic this time. My insecurity, my anger, me being persistent... All makes me think I'm being a toxic person to my SO. To be honest due to this pandemic thing my mental health is not stable.. I'm suffering from anxiety disorder. I get anxiety attacks. She knows about this. I feel as if she isn't leaving me cause she loved me.. rest she's done with me. And I myself feel I'm being the toxic one. I'm ready to work on it.. I ask her several times how can I work on it.. she doesn't seem to be much interested though.. hence the feeling she's done with me. I feel like walking away cause I genuinely care about her. But I don't wanna leave her cause I really love her. I don't really know what to do.. how do stop hurting her.. please help me...