Hi guys I didn’t know who else to talk to you about so I decided to talk to you guys on Reddit but I’ve been married since I’m in my 20s and 30 now in my marriage is starting to fall apart my husband had an affair with a man (a gay pastor ) in another town and went missing for six months and then he called me out of the blue and came back but he hasn’t been the same he’s been different he says he doesn’t love me but he comes over and spends all the time he can with me then on a random day he will treat me as if he hates me we had a wonderful relationship and in the beginning I was insecure so I wasn’t always nice but over the time I’ve changed my ways from being self-conscious and feeling in adequate to being very caring and it’s super loving and it is As if he knows that he takes it vantage of it I don’t wanna lose my husband but I feel like I may have already lost him but I don’t know who’s gonna love me if he doesn’t I’m lost without him I invested so much time in him and I don’t think I’m much of anything without him can someone please help me figure out what I should do I’ve been with him since 2012 I can’t imagine an ending nowSometimes I think on how we met six years before we fell in love we were working at McDonald’s is kids and I had a crush on him and then six years later I bumped into him and I told myself that they will be my husband and he did it maybe I get so caught up in the beauty of that that I can’t see where we are now I just blame it on the pandemic or anything I can think of at the time and I think he still has a lot of care for me because he does everything for me still and he stops anything for me but then even with that for six months I couldn’t ask for anything because I have no clue where he was he was with another man what do I do has anybody been through through similar