I need out. Please help me. I need support. I can't keep going back it's ruining my life. my mental health self esteem and confidence have been so torn down I lose it every time I break up with him and it's like something takes over me and I contact him. I'm aware of what it is now. But I cannot seem to end it for good. And I need to. I have a new job starting next week and I just got into art school and I should be so happy and doing my thing. But this weight is dragging me down and my emotions are constantly up and down from this. I know advice may be "just block him and don't contact him". If I could, I would, I'm looking for someone who understands attachment styles, trauma bonds and has been in a similar situation and how they left. I used to judge people in relationships like this and now I see...you really feel stuck. They tear you down until you're too weak to leave. Please help me.