I’m never rude to anyone, I’m always sensibly sincere with those I meet and I try to not seem too reserved.

I know people I share a lot of interests with and have worked with very closely on things we are really passionate at. I try to go out with them when I can and I also make time to help them when I they need it.

I guess that there is people that I would definitely call friends, but I’ve never had anyone I’m close with in a sense of intimacy and confidence that either them or I would feel comfortable about sharing hugs (other than when expected as a greeting) or sharing personal problems beyond the stuff we work on together.

I have never been contacted by anyone who is just “checking in on me” or who wants to share an achievement, or stuff like that.

I am not sure of what I’m doing wrong, I am introverted, but as I said I try to seem approachable. I also don’t feel like I’ve ever been really in love with anyone and I definitely don’t think I have been someone’s subject of non platonic love either.

I’ve always felt a bit caged in because of all of this but I guess it’s lately caught up to me a bit harder than usual.

I’ve noticed that the people I’m closest to have built seemingly stronger bonds with each other than with me even though I’ve tried to socialize as much with them and I don’t know why, I feel secluded and lonely and don’t have anyone to talk about it.

I haven’t been spoken by or felt like speaking with any of the people I think of as my closest friends since the whole pandemic became a thing and I don’t know what to do about it.