Sup y'all, need some advices. To lay down the ground work, I've been in a committed relationship for 10 years. And I'm just not feeling it anymore. We got together as teenagers, and we both definitely have grown up, but we no longer have the same priorities in life, we haven't been on the same page in out relationship for 2 years now, and I haven't been happy in life in general. But she seems happy. We have tried the usual suspects to fix how I'm feeling, but she isn't into it, because she doesn't see a problem. We have 2 beautiful children whom I love to death, and don't want to leave. I just don't want to be with her anymore. I want to try to be happy, and I can't seem to do that here.
So should I leave? Or should I suffer in silence for the rest of my life?
Edit: to give more details I suffer from depression and bipolar as well, and that's where the same page stuff comes in as well, she doesn't get me when I talk about my feelings because she is a normie, she tries to be empathic, and just can't, and the children would have to live with her, as my job takes me away for months at a time. The other issue that makes me feel like a terrible person, is she doesn't work or have a job,(outside of caring for the children and home which is of course a very important job, I just mean she has no financial income) and I have been her sole provider for the past 8 years. I've felt some sort of disconnect since about 5 years ago when she cheated on me with one of our best friends. I thought I'd put it behind me, but it still twists in my mind sometimes and makes me feel like I've never been enough.
Edit 2: the other half is because we have been together for so long it's a very tangled web, not just kids and each others lives changing, but like, I've been a part of her family for years. Her mom took me in when I was a homeless teenager, I helped raise her nieces and nephews, and I've been there for all the ups and downs of the family. I don't want to lose any of these people in my life. We have all the same friends. There is so much of our lives together that I'm not even sure where to begin detangling it, and I'm not sure I can handle all of the fallouts that are bound to occur.
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