This relationship started two years ago and naturally like any other, it had it's fair share of ups and downs through that period. In February 2020 i was so out of my zone and not feeling comfortable at all with her, and that was after a good 2 months of not getting along and problems nearly every other day. So i decided to tell her my feelings and the response wasn't pleasant so i told her that i don't this anymore and i am so emotionally exhausted. After what i said and i was so decisive on it, she was in a deep state of sadness and depression for a good month and during that time i became very good friends with a girl (20f) whom was with me in university ( we were all together in the same uni) and i told her a lot of what i am feeling but everything of course and i felt really good. Then after two months my girlfriend and i started talking again and we tried to work things out and understand each others sides more, because both of us didn't want to go out separate ways but she told me, in order for us to get back together i have to completely break my friendship with the other girl, that was because my girlfriend though that this girl was abusing my situation to get close to me. We went back and forth over this, but she wasn't going to be convinced anything otherwise so i thought that the best option is to do what she wants. I talked with the girl and told her that i think you were abusing my situation and although i might mistaken but i have to break our friendship and just consider us colleagues. She replayed by defending herself and said that wasn't the case and that she would never do that, but i went through with it. so that above happened one month ago, and ever since i have been talking to my girlfriend and trying to make things work out but every week or so, she tells me that she doesn't want to be with me and that i don't care about her feelings, so i tell her to calm down and talk with me again when she is cool headed, and when that happens she tells me i didn't mean it and that she has gone through a lot during the 2 months we weren't together. But a week ago she told me that she doesn't want to continue on with me "for now" and that she wants each of us to focus on himself. I agreed because i was so discouraged to say otherwise and i told her that i may talk with the girl and tell her that i don't want things to be bad between us, basically just a call to cool down and just quickly talk about what happened and tell her that i have no hurt feelings towards her. So before two days i talked with the girl for 20 minutes and it was an alright phone call, then my ex girlfriend asked me that why didn't you tell you were going to call her before hand, knowing that i previously told her and that i even told her what we went on in the phone call, so i told her i prefer to not talk for a while until i don't know when. So what shall i do now? I am feeling so discouraged to get back with her but i know she can be a genuine good person, also i feel so bad for the girl because i feel that i have misjudged her.