I feel like throughout my life the only thing that I’ve truly wanted is to be loved by a significant other, but as I think about the subject more and more and I experience more relationships I’ve come to the realization that it isn’t really worth the hype...

I know that when I get to the age where marriage is a reality, then women start to think less about “fun” and more about stability but in the time being, I feel like teenage girls and young women only care about how fun you are, how cool you are, whether you have curly hair or not, etc - i.e. superficial stuff

In all honesty, it wouldn’t be uncommon for people to describe me as “boring.” I like to code in my free time, I love doing math, I want to get into a really good college... but theres always more beneath the surface, and I have yet to find a girl who wants to know me and appreciate me for who I am

I just don’t think its worth the heartbreak of waiting for that “special person” when I know that girls don’t think like that at this stage.

So my question is: how do I go from putting all women on a pedestal to not bothering with them at all? My end goal is to be single while also being happy, which I am not right now.