I cheated when the relationship was on the point of ending and regret it.

Me and my partner have been together for almost 8 months now LDR attending different schools only for right now, so far and we’re doing so amazing now it’s, but a couple of months back when we were only barely 5 or 6 months we were going through all the stages of a toxic relationship. Her love felt as if it was fading, the constant arguments, the lack of trust she had in me, she wasn’t ready and she told me but I just couldn’t break it off cause I’ve always seen her as something especially because our history together back in our freshman year of high school we did attend the same school through sophomore year.

We were on and off, she’d want constant breaks, She’d push me away all the time, hide things, lie and just change all of a sudden, my love was so great for her but she was loosing feelings this was her first real relationship that lasted longer than 2 months, so she wasn’t used to it, we hadn’t seen each other for months in that time, even her cousin tried to tell her that’d I’d leave her for someone else if she didn’t change and started treating me better and care about the relationship again she’s literally said she’s putting 30%into the relationship then I found out later that she was still holding onto her ex. At school I was emotionally distressed cause not only was my gf slowly detaching herself from me there was constant stress at home, school, and etc. I met a girl and started talking to her, eventually about my relationship and how I wanted things to just work out with me and my current gf especially because I love her so much but she was starting to drive my love away. Eventually the venting out turned into a kiss and then it just continued on for a week...I finally felt something I was missing for so long the care, the affection, the concern and worry was all there and It was overwhelming and during this time things were just getting worse with me and my girlfriend. I didn’t have it in me to end the relationship even though my love was fading but eventually I broke things off with the girl that kissed me. I just couldn’t I had been cheated on before and to do it just ate me up inside. Fast forward to now me and my girlfriend are like a perfect couple, we talk about the future, our plans together, we try and see each other often now it’s just everything changed for the better and she finally realized my worth and her love for me grew noticeably the paragraphs she’d send me, the time and energy she’d give on me , calling each other everyday now waiting for me to return back to her in her area in a few months so this long distance could end. She’d finally depend on me and give me the time of day.

She really changed and I’m holding onto the guilt that is me and someone other than her kissed months ago when the relationship was on its edge, and I still do love my girlfriend more strongly after I did because I realized what I owed her because of that and when she needed it the most I was there for her when no one else was just like in the beginning, we started growing little by little and now this month we just hit that sweet spot fr. She says she chooses me for the rest of her life wether she fucks up again or I do she’s thankful that I sticked with her and helped her change. I need some advice, am I evil, am I wrong should I even tell her or continue to live on with it and finally forgive myself and let our relationship grow?