Hi reddit, title says the most of this but to get into better detail,i fell in love with someone and it was all super nice and i honestly was controlling for stupid reasons. I tried to do better,i thought i was making progress but it seemed like the closer i got to being better,the lesser of myself i seemed to be to her. I'm to the point where i can't force myself to eat or even feel comfortable at work and honestly i don't know what to do. I know i need to give her space but any major argument I've just been blocked by her when I'm only trying to reason with them. She said my work on being a better person can't only be for her and even though i said it a million times that it was for me and not us,it was never believed. I'm honest to god a very needy person and i try not to be but now I'm so lost.

If anyone has some advice or knowledge of a support thing online please share. Thank you very much.