My boyfriend (23M) and I (21F) have been dating since 2012... Over 6.5 years now. Within the first few months of us being together, I cheated on him sexually with 3 men. Since that point (in 2012), I have done almost everything he has asked of me (drop guy friends, change clothing style, not go out, etc.). There have been a few times after my infidelity where a guy I used to be friends with would see me in public, hug me, and my boyfriend would lash out. I have recently taken nude photos (male photographer in his 60s) to make me more confident and feel good about myself, which my bf became enraged and tried leaving me multiple times. I also talk about problems a lot, mostly because I am scared of them happening. Other than that, not much bad has happened against him.

On his side, he also liked a girl and talked to her for months when we were first together. After he found out I cheated, he lied for 4 years about his virginity, convinced me he liked his best friend and would spend the night at her house, and lie about many other things (big and small). He has also called me many names in the past, which doesn't help anything. My bf has also always blamed everything on me, no matter what. In the past year or so, most of this has ceased other than lying here and there. The biggest issue has been him not agreeing with things I want to do in my life. He also gets randomly mad over the smallest things, yells, etc.

Recently, I have been realizing things I want to do that he would not allow me to do: guy friends, traveling, etc. The love for him that I have has faded over time, but is still there. I am scared to death over the emotional wreck he and I have put myself in, the power he has over me, etc. We both really seem to make this want to work, but we're both basically done with this madness (yet still willing to try)... With the 6.5 years we have, id rather not give up and start over, however, I will if need be.

Please help, I really need guidance in this scenario. I will answer any questions if needed to further explain.