This is my first time writing here please bare with me.

I was in a relationship for a short while one day we decided it was a good idea for me to go visit. For the people that might think it was maybe “too soon” we decided it because we not getting any younger and we wanted to see if it was worth giving it time or so i thought. I got there to my partner house and not a week in and they needed some sort of “separation“ and they fix was to go play with their friends, mind that i am a gamer too and i have no problem with these things but i was in an unknown house and environment and so i started to seek and begg for attention. With these talks that we used to have i told him how i truly felt about everything and he started to avoid me more and more, we eventually broke up and now i feel if i never said anything i would have still be with him no troubles at all and i just needed to endure what he was going through and be more sensitive and just “man up” now i am left with nothing else to think, a broken heart and the feeling of “i fucked up”.

I dont want the “love yourself” morals or any set rules society might think is right. There is no demeaning of what i feel or what he felt. No sense of dates or time was given because of this too.

I feel lonely and alone now more than ever i only have one friend and they have their own thing to do, i am tired of thinking i am the problem but i gave up on the idea that someone will come and acept me how i am.

What i am trying to say is… what now?