As the title says, I find myself micro cheating. Now for some context, I've been heavily addicted to sexual content since i was 12 or so. And some things I used to do to satiate this was talking to people online. Now I am 18, have a loving girl in a super healthy relationship. And as much as I've been trying to quit my addiction I still end up going back to it and talking to people online. And recently I've even started talking to past girls I used to talk to. Once the clarity hits I feel sick to my stomach and disgusted. I would never actually meet up and fuck a girl but just talking to other girls makes me feel horrible. My addiction is going to be the downfall of this happy relationship. So, I need advice on either how to snap out of my horniness and see what I am doing, or how to just quit in general. My brain is fucked from my internet intake since a young age, but I want to fix it for my girl. I don't want to be unloyal but am I literally just a cheater who doesn't deserve this relationship?