So my girlfriend and I have been together for about 5-6 months-ish (the actual beginning of our relationship is a little ambiguous lol). She is the kindest, most gentle, silly, and sweet soul I've ever met. She showers me with love, reassurance and affection. It's a slightly long-distance relationship. She's Japanese and I'm an American living in Japan. It's only about a 2 hour plane ride to get to one another, but it's not like we can hang out all the time currently.

I guess the long story is that I'm constantly afraid that I'm a boring partner. I've brought this up to her once, though not in that way. My last girlfriend broke up with me and said that part of the reason why is because I was a boring person. That's pretty much wrecked my confidence in every dating-endeavor for the last 5 years since then. I explained this to my current girlfriend, and that it was a fear of mine. She showed me love, and said that there's no way that she would ever get bored of me and that she wants to show me love until I'm healed from all my past hurts and trauma.

Of course, that's an amazingly sweet thing. And I want to preface that I do trust her. But I don't think she realizes how boring of a person I really can be, and I feel like I'm steadily becoming a more and more boring partner in time. I'm honestly not sure what I'm even searching for here. Has anyone else struggled with this sense of insecurity -- not with your relationship, but with yourself in your relationship? How did you deal with it?