Well... he's (almost) m31 I'm f34 we've been together for almost 2 years. We have definitely been through some hell and back, last year i was arrested jan 9th and was locked away for 8 months..when i got out and home we were great, a female got in between us and used him tricked him into dumping me. We had been apart 1 month then got back together. That lasted a few days then boom we had a huge misunderstanding and he dumped me again... we got back together November 13th 2024.. so far since weve had only a few arguments and one really bad one. Mind you we both suffer and battle against serious mental disorders. We both have serious psychotic tendencies.. we adore and love each other very much thats very true.. however in 2023 from march to December i had packed and left out of the blue 7 times, not due to him; but due to me trying to run away from my own issues.. he has forgiven me for that however it still haunts him.. we have hit a point where he questions whether he has been pushed away to far, or hurt to deeply even with forgiveness it hurts alot and taunts him... he don't wanna leave but he don't know how to handle this. I myself fight my voices daily about how he had broken down and lost his way while I was locked up and. Cheated on me 6x (different girls) all them knew he was with me but used him while he was mentally broken.... So I fight the "is he gonna break and cheat again".. i know in my soul he won't. And he knows in his soul that he don't wanna leave me. We're literally meant for each other.. But how do we handle cope with or deal with all these deep hurts and horrible intrusive thoughts against each other and our love.???