I have to choose between being with a guy I’ve known for almost 10 years who I have dreams of marrying and having kids with someday. And my super dopamine charged experiences as an exotic dancer and content creator.

I want to be his wife but I’m still in a place in my life (F28) where I want to dance at clubs and have an onlyfans (lol sorry, I know, this is not an ad btw, you won’t find any links anywhere on my page) and do all this other sex stuff and be a sex object and he’s not supportive of it at all. He’s just, more conservative about sex stuff.

The kicker is, he wants me to get on a boat and travel the world with him after I finish graduate school (which feels like a distraction and just purely unrealistic). And I have to choose between getting on a boat with him or losing him to the ocean for a few years before we “settle down and start a life.” Either way, I don’t feel like my needs are being seen and valued. I respect his boundaries, and I love him but I love myself too. I am so lost.

TLDR : I have to choose between being a girlfriend and taking a break from our relationship so I can be an exotic dancer. And. My boyfriend says either I get on his boat or we will need to take a break.