I broke up with my girlfriend of two years four months ago. We lived together and shared responsibility of a senior dog (her dog) who I loved and had a very strong connection with. I had recently graduated from college and was in a weird spot. I didn’t know what I really wanted to do, and hadn’t yet gotten a job out of college. She dropped out early on in college and worked as a waitress. Often times she would rely on me money wise and that sometimes got stressful. I broke up with her because I had this gut feeling eating at me for awhile that it wasn’t right. She was certain that I was her person and she wanted to marry me (eventually) but I didn’t reciprocate those feelings. I was unsure and felt that this was unfair to her. That said, I think I’ve always had a grass could be greener mindset. What triggered these feelings of uncertainty was our differences. We had an intellectual gap per se. she had no interest really in politics or history/science of any kind and didn’t grow up learning about these things. These were things that I could talk about deeply with my friends but never with her and this bothered me. She didn’t take care of her physical or mental health very well and I was often left being responsible for the dog. I like to workout often, and it wasn’t a big deal that she didn’t but a walk here and there is good and necessary. I also sometimes felt embarrassed of her which made me feel awful. Telling my friends and family that she dropped out of college and works as a server was tough (coming from a highly educated school and background). I feared the judgement. What they didn’t know was all of the things that she was though. She was kind, fiercely loyal, obviously gorgeous (one of the most beautiful woman you’ll meet) generous, affirming-always telling me how great I am and making me dinners etc, shit this girl packed my lunches for me. She was incredibly unique in style and character, and she had big goals and dreams. 4 months later and I find myself missing her and the dog more and more everyday. I fear I won’t find someone as great as her, and I feel awful for breaking her heart. At the same time, I feel like I still need to find myself and figure out what it is I want to do. It’s tough because it wasn’t a toxic relationship by any means, but in the moment I felt like I had to end it. Any advice appreciated.