Hi,

My first post. I'm a guy 28M she's a girl 31F. We have worked together for over a year now. We are good friends, there for each other whenever. Talk to her daily to the point people asked if I had a girlfriend to which I responded no because im always on my phone. She's been through alot in life and we have many shared experiences. We can talk for hours that doesn't feel like any time has passed.

I realise that I have caught feelings for her and tell her. She said it's ok and we can still be friends it doesn't make things awkward. So shes seeing someone which I knew about anyways and I want the best for her. But we talk everyday and I realise that I really like her. She has a son who I've been helping with in terms of homework where I can.

When I'm at home I'm thinking about her, when I'm at work I try and help ease her workload. If she has a bad day I go to her at work to make sure she's ok (we both hate the job were in). I stay late at work to give her support (she hates the job and has so much going on personally that she's under a fair bit of stress).

This is the first time I've felt like this about a girl. When we message I'm happy. I smole when i see her. The day becomes easy. My sadness dissolves. I want her to be happy but I don't know how to snap out of it. I tried cutting her out my life before but she didn't let me saying that I can't get rid of her. That she'll always be there for me.

I think I've fallen in love with someone who doesn't love me back. I've never felt this way before. But I'm sad. Just sad. I guess this is what heartbreak feels like and nothing ever happened. I'm not eating properly not sleeping properly just have her living in my mind rent free.

Also, I know. I'm a guy I should grow some balls, were not allowed to show emotions. I should build a bridge and get over it. Plenty fish in the sea and whatever but she's different, she's special. Just wanna see if anyone has a similar experience with this or even with heartbreak and how to move on.

TLDR; fallen in love with my best friend/co-worker who doesnt love back and don't know how to move on.