F31 M36 south Asian Muslims if that makes a difference- dated 3 years married 3 years with 2 kids. I don’t want to cheat on him but I do want to stop being a little puppy dog that follows him around and begs him to be good to me. He’s not good to me- he yells, curses, gaslights, cheats, and contributes less than 1/2 for the house and kids expenses. I want to leave him but I’m also so stuck and I do need the little he does contribute and help watching/caring for the kids which he does. But I think if I can emotionally detach and become numb, he will leave me faster and I’ll have to just deal with it/figure it out or get child support.