Everything feels so perfect right now, almost too perfect, and it’s fucking with my head. he’s sweet, attentive, and makes me feel like the only person in the world. but deep down, i can’t shake this fear that one day he’s gonna wake up, look at me, and just like decide i’m not enough anymore. like, what if all these little quirks he loves about me now start to annoy him later? what if i’m just not as exciting to him when things settle down? it’s not his fault it’s mine. i’ve always had this awful habit of waiting for the other shoe to drop, especially when things are good. it’s like my brain is trying to sabotage me, constantly whispering that this wont last and honestly? i want to just enjoy what we have, but instead, i catch myself overanalyzing every little thing he says or does, looking for signs that he’s pulling away, even when he’s not. what’s worse is i know this mindset could push him away if i’m not careful. nobody wants to be with someone who’s constantly questioning their love or testing their commitment. i don’t want to ruin what we have just because i’m scared of losing it, but i don’t know how to stop this spiral. part of me thinks this comes from my past relationships, where things always seemed to start off great but fizzled out as soon as the honeymoon phase ended. it’s like i’ve been conditioned to expect that love is temporary, that people only stay until they get bored or find someone better. i’ve thought about bringing this up to him, but i’m scared he’ll think i don’t trust him or that i’m insecure (which, let’s be real, i kind of am right now). i don’t want to burden him with my issues, but i also don’t want to let these fears fester and ruin what we have.