So I have this friend, M. M and I have a pretty messy history. We met in my junior year of high school and became friends, and then got into a weird kind of imitate thing. Things were okay until some personal tragedies hit me and my untreated MDD got really bad and I started to be, to put it plainly, a real dick to her. She cut ties (which I don't blame her for) and so I was left to pick up the pieces. Which I did.

Fast forward to a few months ago and she reaches out via email. She tells me that she isn't mad at me anymore because she said that she went through something and understood why I was the way I was (she doesn't know that I have MDD), and that she wanted to reconnect. I agreed and we resumed the friendship. Though with boundaries (this will be important later).

Things were fine to start with. However, recently she started acting way more distant and cold with me that hurt me. She would take forever to answer a text, and when she did it would be extremely short and curt. This eventually got to me and I started being passive aggressive towards her (this was wrong I know). I did come clean with her and was honest about how, while she doesn't owe me anything, I was feeling unvalued in our friendship. She didn't take this very well and we got into a spat about it. She said that she didn't want constant contact and that she made that clear when we reconnected. In my opinion, she didn't. At least, not in the way she's describing. She said she didn't want to talk all of the time, not that she wanted to talk seldom. Furthermore, none of the boundaries we discussed involved frequency of texting.

After about a week I reached out and tried to mend things, she responded with a simple "OK". I then sent a happy thanksgiving text that was ignored. A few days after that, a text letting her know about some mail she sent me. Nothing again.

Last night I sent another text asking plainly how much contact is enough for her. She only responded with "I need some time". I responded asking if it was because I was honest about how I was feeling, and then after a bit of time with nothing back I said "take the time you need I guess." which she thought was me being passive aggressive. I said that I don't know what the right thing to say is and she said that I should only say "ok" and give her space. Which I did and we haven't talked since.

Quite frankly, I feel extremely hurt and angry because it feels like I'm being silently cut out and I hate that shit. Furthermore the way she went about reacting to my feelings about this whole thing reminded me of the very people who made/make my MDD worse. I want to work this out, but I feel extremely powerless because of her instance that she needs "space". Which quite frankly, I think I've given enough. Also, in hindsight, I feel like now the only reason why she reached out was to make herself feel better. There's a lot more that I can say but this is already getting too long so I'm happy to share any other info in the replies.

Really, I just want to figure out how to go about this. How do I handle this?