I recently got to know a guy, he followed my poetry account and kept liking all my stories and eventually we talked, he was a mutual friend with someone we both know. we had alot in common, he likes all my stories or most, he talks to me everyday even when there is nothing to talk abt or when he is busy, he shares memes, his drawings, images of cats ( we both like) images of uni or trees he likes or animes he is obsessing iver he qants me to watch so he can tell me all abt it . Basically he is showing alot of interest in at least being a friend, or more , both are possible.

I like him, personally, I find that he is so suitable to what I had in mind for a partner, he has most of the characteristics I imagined, in his personality and all. Convos are enjoyable and everything was going smoothly.

Till I told my friend, she is a realist, she always helps me and gives me tips whenever I am feeling like shit, she has seen my ups and downs, and been my therapist friend multiple times. I was feeling happy with this new person in my life, I was enjoying our relationship even if it ends up platonic

I told her, and she was passive about it. She didn't comment at all on what he does or all the things I say about him, she just said " it doesn't matter if HE likes you, do YOU like him?" and " I'm worried about you, don't make your expectations too high, keep yourself grounded, and focus on your studies, don't let anything affect this aspect of your life, love and relationships isn't everything okay?"

I know she is right, and I have been wishing for finding love for the longest time ever. I have suffered five years through mental illnesses and being alone, and one of the things I was wishing for so much was love. She has seen me get disappointed alot in one sided crushes, so I understand her worry, I do.

but this time, the interest is coming from his side not mine, and he seems decent, I was starting to have hope.

after what she said though, something in me just, closed, or tightened. That feeling of relief, hope, happiness, whatever u may call it, disappeared, now I feel like shit, I want to cry. I cannot enjoy convos with the guy anymore, I'm getting depressed again. I don't know what happened

thoughts?