My bf broke up with me a month ago citing various reasons: we lost a connection over the past year, didn't feel like we made many memories, he's burnt out from work (works as psych nurse with mentally ill patients), diminishing relationship with his father, which is all affecting him mentally. Then there was a push pull with him constantly changing his mind about breaking up or not. Eventually we reached a stage where he was certain that he wanted to be with me but felt like he should be alone for now. He told me to have faith in him that he would come back. We didn't make a timeline or check-in dates or established what that would look like, leading to my problem right now.

I feel like I'm stuck in limbo dealing with this. I constantly hope every day that he has messaged me wanting to talk. I ended up missing him so much that I asked him to talk last week, but he replied that he wasn't ready and that he needed more time. I just feel like I have no clue what to do. Everything is up in the air and it makes me anxious everyday not knowing what is to come. I constantly ask: when is he going to message me to talk today? What if he moves on and forgets about me? How long is this space going to last? What if he ends up seeing someone else and won't come back? What if the distance just makes us grow further apart? Am I hoping for reconciliation too soon? We didn't specify anything, which we should have.

We've been together for almost 6 years. In fact, our anniversary is next month and I was hoping he would message me beforehand to speak but I don't know if it's too soon or not. I don't really know what to do or expect and it's making me anxious. My exams are coming up and I can hardly concentrate with all these questions popping in my head. I feel like I can't reach out and ask because I don't wanna pressure him with all this stuff going on, and he said he wasn't ready to talk.

I'm already seeing a therapist and I know the rational decision is to live life as if he isn't coming back and heal yourself, so that whether he comes back or not, you'll be okay either way. I'm just really struggling with the ambiguity and not knowing anything.