I met her on the internet via a WA groupchat created for studies, and so our talks went in found out shes lives near me and things started from studies to sending photos to flirting a bit, i didnt liked her for her appearance but for the person she was(my friends rated her 4/10 for some reason) and soon i got added onto her private instagram account where i found tons of validation requiring posts that alot of EMO kids post so i started seeing them from way below and as i scrolled i found a few self harm ones like single blade barcodes made and then proceeded to seeing a big bloody star in a circle with most blood i ever saw, I thought of telling her parents about it but then i thought if i tell them she may do it more because noone stays most of the time at her home, so i starting talking to her so that i can cure her dumb mindset of self harm(which also failed because i got removed from that accounts followers because i confronted her) and with time i found out she used to drink and smoke(infact her own relative who is 40F made her drink alcohol when she was minor) I initially was there to help her get of this, but with time we met a few times and we both enjoyed spending some time together, now the catch to all this is that she often used to ghost me( i have a way of knowing it which is true) and alot of times she used to block me via her main instagram account for things i said and i used to know it(we never talked on instagram) because she posts a few stories everyday and then suddenly stopped and i saw she often blocks and unblocks me.

while all this is going most of the times she was flirting with me and i was trying to dodge it but a week or so ago i started to resonate with their feelings and flirt back... and she has friends whho are twice her age, who keep on sending her gifts at her address and two of them even came travelling from other part of city all over here(during that that she was so drunk that was acting very weird sending voicetexts that clearly suggested her being very high and the same day she had a casual sex with these guys(or just one of them) and deleting that message(i think that they groomed her or something because she knows them since she was 14). also she had a boyfriend who used her for sex and say her ur bad in the bed which mentally broke her.

So, one day out of nowhere i said her if i ever do something weird or wrong let me know ive never been in a situationship or relationship or any kind of thing, and at this point she said lemme make this clear that this is just a friendship(while she literally used to send me memes saying shes in a situationship/relationship). and now i couldnt really think of any reason why she said this because she dropped like 4-5 hints that she loves me, wants to cuddle with me(x4).

And when i already fell for her she now drops this bomb on me, and i was sad(and i had to fucking pretend to be normal to her while tearing a bit for like 24/7) I scrolled chats from the literal 1st day we talked and found of like 10 contradicting facts she said about herself. and often dodged my question about how much she studied or finished course(we are both good at studies).

And now now ive come to this conclusion that Her ex was bigger than me, taller than me, better looking than me, and was better at studies than me. so i am technically a downgrade for her. OR she already has a boyfriend because her so called personal instagram which is her ultimate personal space has 1 follower again(she keeps zero). Also today i didnt felt like talking to her so i threw my phone on airplane mode and came to check for messages but she deleted it for everyone. OR she came in to disrupt my studies.

TL;DR: I met a girl out of nowhere who lies to me about tons of things including that she loves me, and i fell for her, and its hard to get out.