So basically we’ve in a long distance relationship for a year and some change, and I like to make him feel good over ft but I also like to feel good. Before I would do it with him over the phone but honestly It wasn’t enough.. so I would fake it and let him finish. Now I really only focus on his pleasure and ride that high, but when everything’s done he goes to bed and I end the night watching porn to help my imagination and I find myself not being able to finish no other way unless I take serious time into it. I’m not sure what to do I feel incredibly guilty because personally i’m not okay with him watching porn and I watch it only for the idea because afterwards I feel terrible. We haven’t been able to be with each other sexually and I want to do my best with him when I get with him. I’ve been trying to stop watching porn but honestly it’s way to hard to finish without it. I am willing to keep trying to stop because the guilt is becoming worse I feel so wrong. Also he’s my first bf so pleasure with another person is completely new to me.

Thank you for reading and any advice you have to offer!!