We've gotten closer the past few months, to the point I'd call her my best friend at the moment.

Lately she's been going through a lot of major personal life issues: like bf of over 10 years wants their lease to be up so they can move out and live separatly, finding a new apartment, a third job to afford said apartment and put a roof over her kids heads... She feels like she's in a mid life crisis.

We also work together. And today at work I got her upset.

I knew she wasn't in a good mood. Earlier today she twiddled a ring she was wearing when I asked if she was ok... that broke my heart. Then she showed me her bfs message of just wanting to move out. That just pissed me off.

But what I did... I thought it was a harmless joke. But she didn't think so. I had my trainee call her pretending to be lost. She said to stay put and she'd find them. Then she called my cell asking where I was. When she arrived and saw things were ok, she was not happy.

She didn't speak to me the rest of the day. There have been times when she gave me a fake silent treatment, where when I said something she'd glare at me, but then smile.

We always walk out together to our cars and the tension was high. I'd say something trying to apologize and she'd just glare at me and not say anything.

When she got into her car, she drove off the second the ignition turned on.

I sat in my car for 20 minutes because I couldn't move. I feel like I fucked up. It was immature of me to mess around with her like that. I sent a few text stating I was sorry, and that it won't happen again. I even sent a couple voicemails, pretty much for the same things. Apologizing and not making any excuses for myself.

I took advantage of her kindness and I feel awful for it, especially with what she's been through lately.

I was thinking of buying her flowers, her two favorite wines, and a note saying how if she doesn't want to talk to me for now, I understand and that I'll leave her alone until wants to talk to me.