Hey guys. I’m 34 and recently had a few things happen that led to me not being able to ever carry my own kids. Last guy I dated asked me if I wanted kids. I told him I’m open to adopting and that I wasn’t able to have my own. Things were going great between us until that was said and he ghosted me. I have never been ghosted by someone that I took seriously and it hurt me so much and placed a deep insecurity inside of me.

I recently started seeing someone new and I’ve worked with him in the past so we have history, but he doesn’t know about this. It’s been a week and things are progressing very quickly. I always valued him as a friend but seeing him in this light has made my heart crave a deeper connection and last night he admitted to me he was really into me. He is 34 as well and I don’t know how to tell him. I feel so sick about it because he’s the first guy I EVER felt butterflies for. I never thought I’d ever be in a relationship where I was crazy about someone and it was reciprocated. It feels like this is what I’ve been waiting for my whole entire life. I feel a lot of regret that I found him after my illness, because deep down I feel like he will be conflicted and just as hurt as I would be if he had to walk away knowing I couldn’t give him something that was important to him. He’s also a pediatric nurse and extremely well with kids so I’m assuming he would want his own.

I don’t know what I’m asking here. I just can’t stop feeling like it’s unfair. I don’t feel feminine and my insecurities are beginning to come forward. I was in a blissful bubble and now I’m here crying and losing sleep about something that might not even happen. Maybe he’ll stay? Who knows? When is the appropriate time to even mention this? How do I even tell him? I don’t want to waste his time or get too deep, but I feel like I’m already in deep with him. I guess I just need direction and… maybe comfort.