So I have very severe anxiety and really bad self esteem issues that I am going to therapy for and I am trying to fix. These issues have caused me to have a lot of jealousy and have caused me to overthink a lot in the relationship. I really thought we were doing pretty good lately and they hadn’t been much of an issue until yesterday. The day before yesterday we decided we would see each other this Saturday and spend the day together. Then yesterday she told me her guy best friend that she has know for her entire life would be coming to visit. She had nothing to do with his visitation as her roommate is also friends with him but they will be going out to the parties and drinking late. They both liked eachother in the past just at different times and he has been a pretty big source of anxiety for me throughout our relationship so when she told me he would be visiting my brain kind of spiraled and I got a upset and anxious and I admittedly kind of shut down. Then she told me we may not be able to hang out Friday because she might be going out with her friends which I wasn’t happy about considering she would be going out the next day anyway. We called later in the day and she told me we couldn’t hang out on Friday because she made plans to go out with her friends that night which upset me and I shut down again and said I needed time to think about it. We called today and she told me that she feels I have been overbearing and controlling because she knows I get jealous when she goes out. She told me sometimes she wishes she was single or that the distance between us was more so she could have some space which came as a shock and hurt pretty bad. She told me she might want to break up but she doesn’t know what to do. She says she is tired of apologies and excuses and feels like I have been manipulative which was never my intention. We decided that we would do a week of no contact and call in a week and talk. I feel lost and I know it’s all my fault and I really just don’t know what to do. I really thought she was the one. I know I’m young but we have had a good relationship for the most part, or at least I thought we did. I really thought I was doing better but yesterday I just couldn’t control my emotions because I also had some other personal stuff going on that I would rather not include. I don’t know who to talk to because my therapy appointment isn’t till Tuesday. And also she has not given me any reason not to trust her but when she goes out it’s like all my logic goes out the window and I worry and get anxious. I feel so lost. I am really scared to lose her.