I feel like if I had a partner who liked as much space as me, we would never hang out lol. I randomly feel like reading, playing video games, watching YouTube maybe 1-2 hours a day, could be after work, could be before bed.

I’m aware that’s a me problem and should give my gf more consistent attention but I really really have tried to be more physical emotional with her with hugs and kisses but I get in trouble for it not being enough at least once or twice a month.

The problem is I don’t even come close to needing as many hugs or physical touch as her to the point I’m just doing it because she likes it not because I do. According to her, that’s signaling I don’t care about her and I hate that she perceives it that way bc I’m not sure how much better I can get tbh.

Sometimes I want to move towards marriage, other days like this I think I want her to happier and it seems she’d be happier without me.