Long story short, I had an intense 8 month relationship with this girl who pretty much broke up with me out of the blue. She even had me pay a trip with her family just a week before she decided to break up with me over text.

Anyways, 4 months into NC, I flopped up and opened tiktok (I am not a regular user, had it because of her) and one of her reposts came up - was something like "If we meet again, this time we'll do it right". I was doing well 4 months in but I took 10 steps back seeing that tiktok.

Unfortunately, I ended up reaching out asking if I could send a letter I had written, she responded saying "Sure go ahead". I sent it and she read it - saying she thinks it's beautiful and that she needs time to think. The letter clearly stated that I was not expecting a response and that she could ignore it if she wants and I was just taking accountability for my mistakes. My mistakes were normal things that surface up in a relationship such as anxiety, minor insecurities etcetc.

4 days later (I thought she just took my word and ignored me), I receive a message from her saying "I didn't forget you, I wouldn't mind meeting up to talk". After that I just replied late asking when she's free. She never clearly answered and seemed inconsistent. We made a plan to meet up on a thursday and up till 6:30PM we agreed that she'd message me when I could leave home as I had to drive. I receive no response for 4 hours and she replied saying she had to play with her dog and that time flew. After she bailed on me I didn't push anymore - That's how I act with normal people, you flake then I'll leave it up to you and that's what I did "Okay then, Ill leave it up to you to let me know when you want to meet". I was left on delivered - ghosted.

13 days later, I went up to collect some books from a shop which is situated where she works. I happen to "bump" into her walking on the same side of the pavement and I just continued walking, was taking a call anyways. A day after, I was a bit paranoid that she'd think I was stalking her but I don't think she perceived it that way if she actually saw me.

16 days later (from my final message - so 3 days after) she acknowledged my last message. She "saw" it, pretty sure she previewed it but basically she opened up the conversation for some reason. I found it extremely weird how someone goes back to a convo from 16 days back.

A day after (17 days), my friends see her going ham on dating apps. Unarchiving instagram posts and putting herself out there.

I am left hurt of her behaviour, dragging me along and leaving me in limbo and on top of that I see her putting herself out there all in pretty much the same period lol. Could someone give some advice? I know it's hard and unhealthy to break down her weird behaviour but I regret reaching out I probably ended up pushing her into moving on? I don't even know...