So, Im not the most confident to begin with but there are a lot of aspects of my bf's past that have recently came to light and things I've been seeing online lately that have really on my mind for months. Without going into too much detail how I got this info, I've found out details I didn't want to know about his prior sexual experiences from his friend's drunk wife blurting stuff out and been seeing a lot of patterns on his fb activity. The info about his past was basically that he and his friend and had frequent threesomes with multiple girls before they were even freshmen in high school. I genuinely try not to let it bother me but in reality I can't help think "damn I bet my vanilla ass is boring to him" and really thrown off by the fact that he was just on a whole other level of wild than I ever was and acts so timid about sex with me, we can’t even openly discuss kinks. Then when it comes to his online activity, it's a pattern, he's really into like those farm girl types that really play up the sex appeal. I'm not at all physically like these girls but mainly knowing he's more blue collar and REALLY into the country girl thing from what I'm seeing, and that's also not me, I'm feeling inadequate. It's literally constant big booty farmer chicks and I am a flat assed city girl. Makes me feel like I'm not enough. Tried to talk to him about it and he tried to say he's just interested in the fishing or farming aspect but I'm not falling for it, there are zero fishing or farm pages run by men that I have ever seen him follow or like and the women are never modestly clothed with any type of actual focus on a topic other than a sexual inuendo. MY fb reels are constantly filled with suggestions from his activity so it feels like it's always slapping me in the face. I want to have the rationale "he chose you, he's with you for a reason" but I am legitimately one of those people that go blind to everyone else when I'm in love so I just don't get it. I don't have a wild past either so it's like hard for me to wrap my brain around who he is now and separating it from the past stories I've heard (also includes lots more repeated minor criminal history than I was aware of until recently) How do I work past letting these things get to me so much? He shows his love for me and we're truly a great team in life but I'm having a really difficult time not passing judgement on him for his past and being angry/feeling lesser from the evidence of his "type" consistently showing up on my fb.