Okay I’m going to go through this fast cause I accidentally deleted my post that I was going to post about this😭😭.

On September 15th I fell for a guy at a flea market. He was cute, he was nervous as I was, and was my highlight of the whole market MINUS a woman who marked down a ring I bought because I talked to her :((.

He who I’m not sure about the age but because he looked at least my age I’m going to say 18, was helping his mom with her booth that day and would help me with all my nervous rambling questions (because I lose all confidence with the people I like) but he matched that energy and was nervously rambling (but also proudly talking about his mom’s work which I thought was so cute and such a green flag).

I eventually walked away because my friends wanted to see more shops but I would keep glancing back at his shop and eventually asked my friends if I should ask for his number or Instagram.

And just to give you a visual of how badly I’ve never asked anyone out, my friends all did a double take of my question and asked if I was romantically interested in him- and then the shaking and the pushing towards the booth after I said yes was as embarrassing as it was funny.

I’ve never asked anyone else out before, my last relationship wasn’t really interested in me and it was an online relationship.

That’s all to say I had zero clue what I was doing so…

I, when pushed up there, nervously asked for Instagram.

Here’s the thing though, he doesn’t have Instagram so he gave me his mom’s business’s Instagram.

Mind you, we’re both red and nervous. His friend is teasing us more and especially him because I gave him my phone to type and he typed in his actual phone number into the search bar (Which I should’ve taken but I was too busy giggling with his friend as he lightened our nervousness and I was way too nervous to correct him and was thinking, “Okay score I get to talk to the cool mom first plus he said he’d text me once they clean up shop.”

And so, Que me being dragged away by my friends in giggles, laughing at how red I was, and talking about how it could be pouring outside (Which when we left a few minutes after saying bye to a few other shops, it was).

I should’ve asked for his actual number. I was thinking it as I was texting in the rain with a huge smile on my face. I was thinking it as I wiped off my phone in the car and texted a follow up text to apologize for the horrible grammar cause of the excitement- I mean the rain…yeah it was the rain.

I was thinking about it a week after when I panicked and sent the Instagram a “Sorry if I made you guys uncomfortable”.

I was thinking about it on and off until now.

I know where the shop is, The mom still is posting collab events that are downtown (20 minutes from my place), I have friends I can go with….

I just- what am I even doing. I feel like I’m too obsessed with getting either a second chance or a real conclusion to “Cute guy at the market” chapter.

I know he’s there, I know that he could be taken by now- I don’t care I’m just too curious if it was the Instagram thing, me, me coming on too strong, something happened to them-

Honestly my mind is too obsessed, it’s like drama but I’m missing one person that connects it all together. I’m interested in knowing the plot.