Hi all, i thought id jump on here to see if anyone can tell me what im feeling is normal. To give some context im 21M and i just broke up with my ex who was 19F, dated for just under 3 motnths. (Lastnight) The start of the relationship was awesome however as we eventually started dating and more weeks went by we started fighting more, felt like i was in the doghouse all the time and essentially i would find myself running in circles trying to see what i did or needed to fix. This started to become energetically draining which would result myself in being unhappy in the relationship. While i didnt miss her in the relationship, why do i miss her now? (being out of the relationship). I had thought about breaking up before and i couldnt see myself being with someone who couldnt give me what i needed and wanted from a relationship. She couldnt even call babe or bub. This may seem small to some people but to me this means alot. I had asked if she could start calling me cute names and she would reply with, she wasnt used to it and she would need to jus force herself to call me them to get used to it. She played alot of emotional games with me, and im not sure if she concicously knew about this or if she was subconciously doing it.

Despite all the negatives to our relationship why do i feel so much pain. I know i wanted out of the relationship because she deserves to be with someone who loves her just as much as she loves them, but why do i find myself balling and crying. Why is it now that i miss everything about her from the tiniest habits to the scent if her hair. Is what im feeling normal? Is it normal for someone who wanted to end the relationship because of his unhappiness to be crying in pain and hurt. Was my big heart given to me to be hurt. People talk about being broken up with hurts and i think being the one to break up is even harder and hurtful