PLEASE DO NOT MESSAGE ME (Don't be a creep)

We have been together since the beginning of the year and live together. We had sex every day, and it was amazing. He told me when we first met that his sex drive was low, but meeting me changed that. After a few months, we stopped having sex for a while due to me having a small surgery. It was only supposed to be one week, but it became multiple weeks.

His biggest kink would be to watch me fuck someone else. This is something I absolutely would NEVER try, and I think this could be a big part of why he rarely has sex with me now. My drive is very high, and so I am constantly unsatisfied. It makes me feel so upset, ugly, and like I'm not good in bed. I'm scared to talk to him about it because I don't want to lose him.

I have talked to him before. He said he simply has a low sex drive and that is all. I know I am not his usual type, and so the lack of sex makes me feel ugly. We have sex maybe 2-3 times a month. When we do, I feel very awkward. It's like I've forgotten how to initiate or go along with things. We never make out. We give eachother little pecks everyday and cuddle a lot, but that's the most that usually happens. I almost feel like I am living with a best friend that I am in love with. He told me that his sex drive is always low in the summer, and higher in cold weather. However, we are in colder weather now and nothing has changed.

TLDR; Been together since January. Used to have sex every day. Now, 2-3 times per month. His big kink would be to watch me fuck someone else (I would never try this). He said he has a low sex drive. I feel ugly.