Very recently I (F20) moved in with a boyfriend (M20) I used to share a mutual love with and have been living for about 2 months. He broke up with me. I feel it to be my fault because I should have anticipated that we wouldn't last for too long and now I'm stuck with him. I'm not financially to the point where I can move out so I've decided to fake my love for him until I can build my money and move out. At this point we're friends with benefits which I don't want to be but he helps me financially so I have to keep the lie up in order to survive. I know I'm an asshole & a bad person but it's the best course of action since I have no immediate family (living in California by myself).

I live in an area with no friends, this is my ex's hometown but I did meet someone and tomorrow I made plans to hang out with them, but my ex will begin to ask questions such as where am I going, who is this friend, why am I wearing what I'm wearing, etc etc. I came on here to ask, what excuse(s) can I come up with in order to safely leave the apartment? I thought of telling him "I made a friend at my college (we go to separate colleges)" but I don't think he would buy that.

I am only 20 so if anything doesn't make sense, if something doesn't seem obvious to me or if I "should've done x y or z" then it's because I still am young and naive, this is my first relationship