Basically what the title of the post says. My (28F) boyfriend (33m) and I have been on a break from our relationship since early June. We originally started this break because of both of us feeling disconnected from the relationship.

Basically I feel that rather than work through the disconnect we were both feeling, both of us are feeling more disconnected. He hasn’t come out and said as much, but his actions have shown it, particularly after an incident that happened recently that has made him question whether we can remain loyal to each other. No, I did not cheat on him, just broke a boundary, which I know can be just as bad if not worse. There was cheating on his part that did become the catalyst for me to want to take a break from the relationship.

I have autism and this time of year is incredibly difficult for me as there have been a number of sad things that have happened in the coming months that I am still affected by. I also haven’t been able to see my therapist in a couple of months due to changing jobs. So needless to say, a huge part of me doesn’t want to add this on to a whole bunch of other emotionally taxing situations. Part of me feels I’m reading into things, which I have done in the past, and worried I would be making a mistake when I don’t have anything to fear. But at the same time, I also recognize it sometimes takes him awhile to even recognize his feelings and he may not even be realizing he wants to break up, and I selfishly would rather wait for him to do it so I can rely on him for emotional support awhile longer. I’m extremely confused by everything