Hello everyone am back again, I made a post before on r/dating and here about my now ex-fiance, both subs told me we need to break up.

We have known each other over 10 years we had been together 1yr 4month 16days we lived together, she has always had a troubled past prostitution, sex trafficking, even been to jail for drug trafficking all this botherd me a great deal but I didn't want to judge her on her past and I know that every time she was in a relationship with someone she was faithful over the years but it only got worse as I learned more and more about the things she had done I could not go nowhere without running into four or five people she had already slept with but at the same time I loved how everyday strangers would always compliment her on her clothes her hair or how she looked.

I have always had trust issues from my ex-wife who also has known her the same amount of time, but she helped me with that so much she helped me get over my ex, she was the first women that actually made me feel like a real man, when I was found passed out unconscious in a parking lot no one looked for me not even my family but she tracked me down and helped me, she would cook and clean, she would buy me gifts things I actually liked just from overhearing me say something meaning she was actually listening to me, she would always build up my confidence she would take me out places, I have never in my life dated a women who has ever did anything other then ask me for stuff or to do stuff, she was so different I loved her goofy laugh how she seem to remember every song, she even learned to ride a motorcycle in less than a day just so we can ride together, when I shaved my head she gave me confidence.

But she always wants to go out drinking and party about every other day and all weekend, well this past weekend I was in a bad place had so much stress on me and knew the weekend was coming, I made plans for us to go do something together only for her to say she going to her brother house be back in a hour yet she had some random stranger pick her up, I know she used to sell her body and I know she does onlyfan and sell nude pics and that she had some bills coming up that I just couldn't pay right now, I told her I will pay them in a few more days and I didn't want her to go out stay with me but she left, we could see each other location and I saw her all over town in the bad part of town she came back in at 4 am drunk and we got into an argument with me telling her that I'm tired of her being in the streets Non-Stop and that I don't trust that she is not out prostituting I know more then once she has called me and asked if it would be okay to sleep with someone or to give them a handjob my answer was always no, I do know she started selling men pictures or allowing them to masturbate to her naked for money I didn't like that but I trusted that she was telling the truth about not letting them touch her because she had told me so much of her life and that was one of the things I respected about her that no matter how bad things was she would tell the truth.

But because of my trust issues I did not believe her this time the because of My Big mouth I said a lot of things that I shouldn't have I complained about her being out too much and now she is gone and it hurts I don't know how to get over it, where I live is very very small you can't find anyone even with online dating you may see the same 4-5 women at most in this area.

She has been gone two days and she has already moved in and sleeping with her old suger daddy I always knew that when she done she is done and moves on fast and when she single she sleep with men and women at random just for the hell of it, but she is also on Facebook posting bad things about me saying that I hacked all her accounts, that I tried to start a fight with her son called my teenage daughter gay and posting comments about all the different sexual things we used to do, she is doing everything exactly the same as my ex-wife did and she knows what she did to me and promised me she wouldn't be that way, at the same time I also have a recording of last week her saying she would never leave me that this is till death do us part and that hurts because I trusted in her this is the second time in my life that this has happened.

I have only really loved two women in my life and only opened up to them two all the others I knew were just going to be temporary but to have loved these two and lost them i feel so broken, I tried to learn from my mistakes with my ex-wife and tried to give this woman everything she asked for no matter what it was even the smallest hint I jumped and did it I took care of her and her son the only mistake I made was getting mad about the constant partying especially when we were trying to save up for a new house.

If you guys have any advice on how to ease the pain or how to get over her faster please tell me or if any of you have any stories about losing someone specially multiple times that you we're truly in love with I would like to hear them, I just need know what to do now I don't feel like I will be able to find anyone else that cares about me as much as she did, out of 100s of women I have dated in my past there has only been two that made me happy, comfortable and loved and both times I lost them because they partied so much that I felt like I was alone, am scared and hurt sorry for all the rambling on I know I sound crazy.