My wife and I have been together for 14 years and married for 12. For the last year or so we've discussed several times how I don't feel like she shows me that she cares about me anymore. This was never a concern that she had about me. Not too long ago a friend remarked to her how "obviously into her" I was. Friend said to her "if my husband loved me as much as your husband did, we'd be unstoppable." This is not meant to make me look like a hero or anything (nobody's perfect and certainly not me). Just an example that showing her I loved her was not an issue.

The situation that was sort of the beginning of the end was when I was cleaning in the kitchen and I threw my back out. Wails of pain, couldn't move. She was in the living room which is basically connected but she couldn't see me. She said absolutely nothing. Didn't ask me if I was okay even. I was in a lot of pain, and I'd never felt like I mattered less to her. She saw nothing wrong with what she did (or rather what she didn't do).

That caused a conversation a few weeks ago where she finally admitted that she didn't love me anymore. I suspect she hasn't for quite a while. Maybe years. She asked me if I wanted to go to couples counseling, but honestly what's the point of that? You can't fix something that isn't there anymore, and I'm not going to beg someone to love me (even though I kind of have been for a while).

Frankly, I don't really have anyone else in my life. I have a best friend who I'm very close with, but that's honestly it. My brother and his family have never really seemed interested in a relationship with me. No other family to speak of. I left my career a year ago because I was miserable (wife encouraged me to do so), and I never really found my footing after that. Employment has been...spotty. I'm just lost. I don't know how I'm supposed to rebuild my life at 36. The loneliness is soul-crushing.

TLDR: Wife is leaving because she doesn't love me anymore. I have 1 friend and no one else. Wtf do I do with my life now?

EDIT: Figures my most popular post would be about my divorce. Just wanted to let you all know how much I appreciate the responses. I was a little worried posting about it on reddit. Figured I'd be torn to shreds, but you guys are good people. I'm gonna take all of this to heart and try to get myself straight. Thanks again, friends.