Me and my current boyfriend met the first week of college this past year. After about a month and a half he asked me out and I said yes. I’m not going to lie a big part of me saying yes was we had the same friend group and I wanted my freshman year so be full of friends. He’s never really been my type per se, we don’t have much in common. As these 8 months dating have gone by it’s been high highs and low lows. Either I love him so much or he’s on my nerves. He recently went back home for the summer and the long distance is making our connection worse. I never thought we had that deep of a connection (we would have minimal deep conversations and rarely openly communicate about tough subjects). And i know it’s shitty to do but comparing him to my last, it just doesn’t feel authentic. I really wanted it to be him and I do care for him so much, but I don’t see myself happy in this relationship in the future, I just know there’s someone out there that i’m more compatible with. I keep going back in forth knowing ending things would do good in the long run, but i don’t want to make the mistake of maybe regretting it and losing that friend group I spent the last school year with. Me and my boyfriend would hardly have actual sex and when we were intimate it was always me getting left unpleased. I am so lost in this situation, I feel utterly horrible and I know if i breakup with him it would kill him. He puts me on a pedestal (given i’m the first guy he’s ever been with) and i hate the pressure of being his “loml”. I feel like i lost myself a bit at college anyway and need to focus on myself and my mental health. I feel like I need to experience that journey myself. Any advice? Any tips? Similar situationsV