So, in my last two posts, i wrote of how I was thinking she was cheating on me and how she wanted to bring in kinky couple friends. I wasn't for that, and I never liked the idea of her doing sexual acts towards another guy. On Friday last week, she told me that she had talked to, made plans with, and was going to meet a random guy from fet to sell him panties and possibly meet up again to do dom stuff towards him if he wasn't a creep. She had made these plans without consulting me first and started talking to the guy two days prior to telling me. I feel so hurt. I was lied to, back stabbed, and cheated on. Her excuse was that she didn't want to say anything to me so it wouldn't hurt me and that it was completely business transactional to make extra money on the side. I told her multiple times that I didn't like the idea of her doing sexual acts towards other people. Yet she still went behind my back and made the plans. I said that it would eat at me and kill me on the inside if I let her do it. I told her it doesn't work for me if she did it in a relationship with me. I didn't consent to it, and I also told her that I didn't want a non-monogamous relationship with her. So I called her out on it, and she said that I was doubting her. Well, of course I was, I said, "How do I know you haven't been messaging other people sexually during our relationship?" She never let me touch her phone, and any time I asked who she was talking to, she would get defensive. I broke up with her today, took all of her stuff in her reusable bags back to her house, and had the door slammed in my face three times. I asked her for a hug as a final goodbye, but she heavily rolled her eyes and asked why. I still love her and didn't want things to end on such a bad note, but she told me that she didn't want to see me ever again and slammed the door in my face for the last time. She is super pissed at me. I've cried so much the past 24 hours. I'm exhausted and feel like garbage.

Sorry for the long post...