Check my profile for the first part.

So here's an update. I called her out on some of the things I've been noticing that I said in the last post. She was very upset and hurt. She said I was trying to fool her and have been a prick the past couple of days. I admit I was a bit of a prick, and I feel very bad about it. But it really hurt that she thinks I'm trying to fool her. I don't do that to women. Also said I didn't fight to get her to stay with me and said im setting her up for failure, which is not the case at all. I gave her space and time just like she asked me to before whenever she gets upset. Yet she said she didn't ask for it and got even more upset. I've treated her like gold because she is the best thing that has happened to me in the past three years. Anyway, she told me she updated her fetlife account because she was bored, then told me it wasn't because she was trying to attract a different guy. She wants to have fun with another woman and be friends with a kinky couple. I dont like the idea of friends with a kinky couple, I don't understand it. I'd probably be okay with her having fun with another woman, but I'd want to meet said person. Then, possibly join or watch. I can't justify touching another woman if she is dating/married to another guy even if there is consent. Feels like cheating. I've been cheated on in most of my past relationships. I hate cheaters. She just found a couple on fetlife today. She now isn't 100% sure about our relationship and wants to take a break. I dont know what a break is because I've only ever been broken up with or left for someone else. I feel lost. I dont know what she is going to do during the break, and It concerns the hell out of me. I dont know what to do.