Hi there.
I honestly am at my wits end trying to figure out what has been going on with me health wise. My main symptoms that are making life unbearable seem to all be related.

My neck and shoulder usually all the way down to my scapula feel tight or like my upper body is being twisted. The pain seems to be connected to jaw pain as well. Anytime I have a pain episode usually at night before bed. I work at a coffee shop so bed is usually around 3am if we get out on time. Next is my ear and sinuses. It feels like either something is moving in there or my bone in my skull are shifting. I have these lumps all over my skull that are never really sore but they tend to grow then shrink. When they are in a enlarged state I get the worst headaches/migraines. They even go as far as to effect my eye sight.

Which is the next big symptom, I got blind in one eye usually my right for 15 sec every now and again. First time it freaked me out but when it came back and i got to urgent care they just sent me home with antibiotic eye drops. Sometimes they get very very swollen. To the point where my eye looks like a clear jello inside a ziplock bag. My depth perception is getting pretty bad but my peripheral vision is hyper sensitive. It drives me nuts because I’m constantly noticing the slightest movements in my peripherals when anyone is close by at work. It’s a stressful enough job but constantly spilling things, or slamming stifle on the counter because I don’t know how far away from me it is paired with being on edge anytime someone needs to use something near me is ruining my quality of life.

Next and the most vain is that my hair keeps falling out and growing back sparse, very dry and thick but flat. It sounds like I’m cutting wire when I cut it. The mooting also sometimes come with my skin seeping out this sticky goo. If I rub it with my hands it tends to just smear but if I scrape and am well moisturized it cones out like little clumps of sticky white looking wax. And I swear that sometimes I find these threads in them. Either balled up or unraveled. They usually itch really bad when they touch my skin.

This all also seems to be happening to my dog. He paws at his ears. His muzzle seems to hurt at night cause he sleeps with his paws over it and his coat is dry lackluster and recently his head has been getting bald spots as well as his jowels.

I just don’t know what to tell the doctor or vet cause they tell me it’s anxiety and think I’m hurting my dog, and I’m confused why because it’s not like I go in asking for anything more than for someone to take me seriously.

This all started to really take off after I moved back in with my dad. His house has a sweage issue that he has ignored for years. Before anyone says anything about how you can’t get filarial worms from poop, I know that. But you can get hundreds and hundreds of flies and mosquitos living in the walls. Every window has abotu 50 dead flies on the base. He had a rat problem also and incidentally I have discovered that they also come out of the base molding on the floor. One of his rat sticky traps had proof of that. It’s most dense near the side closest to the wall.

I know some of them are mosquitoes because there are some dead ones in the sticky traps but some of these flies I have never seen before in my life. Or at least never noticed.

The ask bugs subreddit said one of them might be robber flies.

I know some of them are phorid flies.

And then there are these other ones that are tiny, yellow and when you squish them their blood is red. So it’s most likely non insect blood since their blood doesn’t turn bright red when exposed to oxygen.

I decided to post this after getting this picture of something moving in my eye.

I honestly felt like these flies and disgusting environment have something to do with it. They have even been showing up in the fridge Ice maker.

My dad hates me for whatever reason. Be it me being gay or something so he blames me for everything and then gaslights me to the point of insanity.

I just want this to stop. These health issues really mess with my head. I’m a recovering drug addict and all of this was easier to dismiss when I was trying to die with every shot. It made sense that my body was doing this when I was tweaked out and malnourished. I eat now. Not the best diet but my skin has a glow on a good day when this isn’t happening. Hell sometimes I think my hair might even start growing back and then just like that it’s back to panic and depression because this has been going on for 3 years.

I seriously feel like I’m near a breaking point. If this dog dies I don’t know how I’ll be able to live with myself. He’s the only thing that I feel loves me even on my worst days and I dint have any friends anymore.

I need help. What is in my eye ? How can I get this diagnosed